So, it's decidedly James... I mean, not a lot could make much more sense than that. It's funny to think back. To think about all that's gone on in almost five and a half years. There've been other guys, there have been other girls, but none like him. I just saw the blog I wrote back in... March? either that or late February-- about my just writing to people and saying what I needed to. I was so utterly confused back then and, until a couple of weeks ago, it seemed like it'd be that way for a while. But God is so good and He answers EVERY question you ask.
It's easy to forget that especially it being the Spring season in my life. Especially when all of it gets pushed to the side and into the back of your mind... It's easy to not remember that. This Spring season seems to be different from the rest, though. I haven't walked as far away as I have previously. There have definitely been unique happenings this season compared to the others, but I'm slightly impressed. I do see the change, however. I notice the difference from the end of last year to now. The drive isn't there, the seeking isn't there, the connection on my end has lessened. I'm slowly trying to get that back. It's not going to take me until late July and early August to do it. There's no time like the present (:
When I think of my ideal future, when I have in the past few years at any point, I've wanted my boyfriend eventually fiance, eventually husband to be standing in church with me. I've wanted my kids to grow up in the church surround by a love they can't find anywhere else. It's funny because I've always known if it was James, I'd have that. I'm so excited for the future. So excited to have kids and raise them to know God from the moment they take their first breath. I don't want them to feel like any part of their lives was lesser because it was without Him.
Which reminds me of two things: the first being the initial questions Angela, Stephanie, Amy and the rest ask about whatever guy it is I'm telling them about. The second being the plan for the next year as I'd like it to play out (: You can believe there's going to be a lot of prayer to help hopefully get this to happen.
The check list... The first thing they ask me when I'm telling them about a guy beyond the "What's his name?" and all the generics are "Does he believe in God?" Happily, I can say yes. lol Which sounds silly, but I'm excited about it. I'm excited that last year when all of my mission trip hype started coming about, he was interested in them and said he'd like to do that. ((This is probably why when the girl that apparently likes him a whole bunch asked him to go to Africa with her for a mission trip, it bugged me. Not that I told him or said anything about it, butttttttttt it definitely did)) I LOVE that he's open to them and wants to go because quite frankly, I see that being a BIG part of my life in the future and since he's going to be part of it as well, it's good that he wants that.
I just realized I said excited a lot in this last paragraph... Apparently I need to pull out a thesaurus and start reading synonyms for freakin EXCITED!
Second part is the way my next year would happen if I could say so. First would be that I'd get this job at the summer camp. I REALLY REALLY REALLY want to do it and I'm definitely going to be sad if it doesn't work out. I love that it's a Christian camp and there IS worship every single day. I'm sure there's a whole lot else that'll be centered around and focused on God, so it'd be amazing to be hanging with kids all day long while being completely surrounded by Him. The other would be that the rest of my dumb application for the DTS would get finished... I guess I'm the only one to blame for it not being completed yet, but I'm a little lost. I should probably ask my dad for help since he's pretty snazzy like that. The thing I'm most concerned about is the background check. Cause I don't really know how to go about getting that andddd it HAS to be in for my application to be considered complete and for them to either accept or reject me. The other thing I'm freaked about is the money, BUT, I know, if God wants you there, He'll figure it out. Cross your fingers and PRAY HARD. haha SO, summer camp job, LEAVING FOR AUSTRALIA in mid September... I guess it'd be closer to the end, so more like the twenty fifth or something along those lines. Although, maybe you're not allowed to be there two weeks early? That'll be one question to ask if I get accepted. OOOOOO. I just realized that if I get the summer camp job, the pay I'll get from that could buy my plane ticket. SNAZZY! bahahaha Apparently I like the word snazzy as well. I've used it twice so far. The DTS would get over at the very end of March or the beginning of April of 2010. The plan is for James to come over there, he and I will go explore for a little while by ourselves and then, like I said if all goes as I'd like it to, Kelly and Shaun will fly in and meet us somewhere in Australia. Maybe in Perth, maybe in Sydney, maybe in a different location... Shaun said he has an uncle that lives in Australia that he's never met before. I don't remember where he is off the top of my head, but if I saw it, I'd be able to say that's what it was. We'll hang out in Australia all together for a few days or a week depending. Then, we'll fly to California for maybe three or four days and go to flippin DISNEYLAND. None of us have been. My dad's been with my aunts, but they called it an "adult trip" and said kids weren't allowed. SOOOOOOOOOOO we didn't get to go. It'd be nice to go play around (: Then we'll fly to Las Vegas to go get Brittany and Melissa if she, at that point, decides she'd like to move as well. We'd road trip from Las Vegas back here to lovely Seattle and hang out for a few weeks cause this is where I live and where both Kelly and Shaun are from. Well, Kelly's from a few places, but before moving to Texas, she lived up here. James and Brittany at least will get to meet everyone, Kelly and Shaun will get to visit. Thennnnnnn, myself, Brittany and James are headed to Portland. Kelly has said she and Shaun will come as well so they can get us all moved in (: Cause, believe it or not, I'm moving to Portland whether any of the rest of this happens. Nicole's going to school at the Western Culinary Institute and the only location is in Orgeon. I'd like to move, Brittany wants to move, we're all best friends and we figured WHY NOT!? Oh jeez. I just realized! If we're going to be in Cali, this means we MUST see Kortney :D As if I couldn't be excited enough for the next three hundred and sixty five days! haha I don't know what James is doing after that, although my assumption would be he's not just going to want to leave me alone and be all "Imma go here" haha He has an entire year to figure it out, so I'm not too worried. The only thing I really need to worry about is where we'll be living... Rent a house? Rent an apartment? We shall see (: Myself, Brittany and Nicole have decided that we do want a dog or two. Which I'm looking forward to ((BAM! I found an alternative to excited! lmao)) After the rest of all of this and past much more than what I've said, it's up in the air and we shall see what happens!
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